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REQUEST: I'm not posting this on facebook or likely to discuss it much there because I'm keeping this from my grandmother who has severe anxiety issues and a past heart attack. This new could literately send her into the anxiety attack that gives her another. She's not on facebook, but people who would tell her are. I hate to keep things from her, but this is the kindest thing I can do for her! Thank you!
I've been pretty evasive when it comes to WHY I've been so scarce and have been even slower than usual and getting through my mega backlog, other than a vague reference to health issues. Well, this journal may contain a little too much info, so if you don't want to hear that, just suffice it to say I've got a diagnosis and I'll be dealing with it and getting better eventually!
So I've had immune system related issues for a while, a little touch of rheumatoid arthritis, allergy crazy, and sometimes getting sick more than normal, but my immune system is evidently out to get me. Because it's thrown Ulcerative Colitis into the mix. Info here if you're interested: www.ccfa.org/what-are-crohns-a…
I started bleeding almost two month ago and went to my doctor. (This is after a long bout of ridiculous allergic reactions since November btw.) She examined me and said unfortunately she had to send me for a colonoscopy. The Gastroenterologist department called to schedule and repeatedly called it my "cancer screening", because that's comforting. So between then and yesterday, I was basically spending a huge amount of time in the restroom, with kinda terrifying symptoms, lost my appetite (but kept eating because I was determined not to lose weight and freak out more plus needed the nutrients), freaking out in case work had a problem with how much time I was hiding in the bathroom, and had a nice few panic attacks. After 20-30 days I started sleeping when I got home because I'm so exhausted. I couldn't take any pain relievers so migraines were much fun. I went to the hospital a few times and was tested repeatedly for anemia and for cell counts.
Thankfully, I finally got my procedure yesterday (And they knocked me out, thankfully!) Everyone, especially my nurses, were super nice and kind, and it was cute how they seemed to adore my husband, who was allowed to sit with me while I was prepped for the procedure and in recovery. They kept calling him my "Sweetie" and kept petting my head and arm, and kept giving me new warmed blankets. I think it was because I was so much younger and smaller than all the other patients around who the youngest was probably in his late 50's. One of the nurses came over and we had a long discussion about social issues and autism spectrum disorders, which was random but good for keeping your mind off things. Anyway, no cancer (though they are biopsying some stuff), and I have all the medicine in the world to take. *looks at her horse pills*
So, anyway, this is a chronic disease I will deal with forever, but we're going to get it in remission and I have appointments lined up to see if I respond to the medication, and to move on to diets that might work for me to help, ect. In the mean time, I'm sorry to say I'm probably still going to be around less just due to the exhaustion. I've still got my list and I'm DEFINITELY going to get it all done! No one forgotten! I wanted to say a HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE BEING PATIENT, LOVING, AND KIND TO ME! Only a bare minimum of people knew what was going on because I didn't want them to have to share my freak out, and to those folks who got hit with it, you are simply the greatest. Another shout out to the admins at the groups I also admin in and those I am founder of, for your shouldering almost all my work. The fact that I can leave it in your hands have been a huge relief.
Also, I'm sorry for the lack of story progression on
due to having no energy to sit and write the next tasks. They are coming, but typing is one of my most tiring things right now (including this message! XD ), I'll team with my cohorts and get it updated soon! A special thank you to all the wonderful folks waiting there, you guys are the BEST!
Thank you all again for all your support, and your continued support, while I get my health and life back on track!
I've been pretty evasive when it comes to WHY I've been so scarce and have been even slower than usual and getting through my mega backlog, other than a vague reference to health issues. Well, this journal may contain a little too much info, so if you don't want to hear that, just suffice it to say I've got a diagnosis and I'll be dealing with it and getting better eventually!
So I've had immune system related issues for a while, a little touch of rheumatoid arthritis, allergy crazy, and sometimes getting sick more than normal, but my immune system is evidently out to get me. Because it's thrown Ulcerative Colitis into the mix. Info here if you're interested: www.ccfa.org/what-are-crohns-a…
I started bleeding almost two month ago and went to my doctor. (This is after a long bout of ridiculous allergic reactions since November btw.) She examined me and said unfortunately she had to send me for a colonoscopy. The Gastroenterologist department called to schedule and repeatedly called it my "cancer screening", because that's comforting. So between then and yesterday, I was basically spending a huge amount of time in the restroom, with kinda terrifying symptoms, lost my appetite (but kept eating because I was determined not to lose weight and freak out more plus needed the nutrients), freaking out in case work had a problem with how much time I was hiding in the bathroom, and had a nice few panic attacks. After 20-30 days I started sleeping when I got home because I'm so exhausted. I couldn't take any pain relievers so migraines were much fun. I went to the hospital a few times and was tested repeatedly for anemia and for cell counts.
Thankfully, I finally got my procedure yesterday (And they knocked me out, thankfully!) Everyone, especially my nurses, were super nice and kind, and it was cute how they seemed to adore my husband, who was allowed to sit with me while I was prepped for the procedure and in recovery. They kept calling him my "Sweetie" and kept petting my head and arm, and kept giving me new warmed blankets. I think it was because I was so much younger and smaller than all the other patients around who the youngest was probably in his late 50's. One of the nurses came over and we had a long discussion about social issues and autism spectrum disorders, which was random but good for keeping your mind off things. Anyway, no cancer (though they are biopsying some stuff), and I have all the medicine in the world to take. *looks at her horse pills*
So, anyway, this is a chronic disease I will deal with forever, but we're going to get it in remission and I have appointments lined up to see if I respond to the medication, and to move on to diets that might work for me to help, ect. In the mean time, I'm sorry to say I'm probably still going to be around less just due to the exhaustion. I've still got my list and I'm DEFINITELY going to get it all done! No one forgotten! I wanted to say a HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE BEING PATIENT, LOVING, AND KIND TO ME! Only a bare minimum of people knew what was going on because I didn't want them to have to share my freak out, and to those folks who got hit with it, you are simply the greatest. Another shout out to the admins at the groups I also admin in and those I am founder of, for your shouldering almost all my work. The fact that I can leave it in your hands have been a huge relief.
Also, I'm sorry for the lack of story progression on
due to having no energy to sit and write the next tasks. They are coming, but typing is one of my most tiring things right now (including this message! XD ), I'll team with my cohorts and get it updated soon! A special thank you to all the wonderful folks waiting there, you guys are the BEST! Thank you all again for all your support, and your continued support, while I get my health and life back on track!
